Had the day off today so headed off to SWF in the morning.
Spent the day dossing, chatting to Sophie, chatting to Keith online, stealing chocolate off his cake (and texting him to tell him I was doing it and there was nothing he could do about it!).
Re-coloured my hair as roots were getting to be shocking!
Cooked dinner - a thrown together mishmash of pasta (gluten-free of course), roasted peppers and bratwurst! Oddly enough it turned out OK.
Re-coloured Keith's hair then a mad dash to get ready for Club Antichrist. Keith had his usual clockwatching spazz but saved the grumpy fucker bit for when I was out getting money from the cashpoint!! LMFAO!
Rules of the Club - No Drugs, No Cameras, No Antisocial Wanking! Wahay!!
Friday, 29 February 2008
Thursday, 28 February 2008
No Internet Connection
BT finally pulled their finger out and cut off the line so no internet connection at home at the moment.
My line should be activated on Monday with a new number. BT Broadband should be on the way shortly thereafter.
Thank you Keith for doing the online order for me.
Will blog again as and when I can - but am at Keith's for the weekend as usual and off to Club Antichrist Friday night so nothing before then!
My line should be activated on Monday with a new number. BT Broadband should be on the way shortly thereafter.
Thank you Keith for doing the online order for me.
Will blog again as and when I can - but am at Keith's for the weekend as usual and off to Club Antichrist Friday night so nothing before then!
Wednesday, 27 February 2008
Cult Secret Gig at 100 Club
Shite day at workyesterday so I won't bother to post about that.
Absolute hi-light was The Cult secret gig at the 100 club in Oxford Street.
What an awesome night!
Met Keith at North Greenwich tube after work and headed off into London. Dinner at Pizza hut - chicken bits and natchos for me as they are the only gluten-free things on the menu worth eating!
Doors were supposed to open at 7 but no surprise that they didn't. Fortunately it wasn't too freezing standing in the street!
Had a drink at the bar once we got in... forgot about stupid London prices! £8.20 for a JD & Coke and a Rum & Coke!! We stuck with just one!
The band chose to make everyone wait and listen to shite music on a loop for about 2 hours so by the time they got going, everyone's eardrums were ready for a break.
have pics - will post later!
Got tube back to N Greenwich after the gig and then drive to Chelmsford. Way too tired to drive home after so crashed at Keith's for a few hours, got up at 4am and made my way back home.
Fantastic night and fabulous company! Thank you for getting the tickets Keith.
Absolute hi-light was The Cult secret gig at the 100 club in Oxford Street.
What an awesome night!
Met Keith at North Greenwich tube after work and headed off into London. Dinner at Pizza hut - chicken bits and natchos for me as they are the only gluten-free things on the menu worth eating!
Doors were supposed to open at 7 but no surprise that they didn't. Fortunately it wasn't too freezing standing in the street!
Had a drink at the bar once we got in... forgot about stupid London prices! £8.20 for a JD & Coke and a Rum & Coke!! We stuck with just one!
The band chose to make everyone wait and listen to shite music on a loop for about 2 hours so by the time they got going, everyone's eardrums were ready for a break.
have pics - will post later!
Got tube back to N Greenwich after the gig and then drive to Chelmsford. Way too tired to drive home after so crashed at Keith's for a few hours, got up at 4am and made my way back home.
Fantastic night and fabulous company! Thank you for getting the tickets Keith.
Monday, 25 February 2008
Dull Day and BastardCrud!
God, what a boring day!
Woke up feeling all flu-ridden and crap again. Had to get back on the Lemsips and Strepsils as my throat had pretty much given up!
Stumbled into work. Tidied up a few loose ends. Arranged some visits and reviews. Filled in some forms - had a manic moment and got a case of the giggles thinking about Keith's party while completing someone's benefit application - now people in my office think I am a nutter! Almost fell asleep in a meeting (small room, no air, dull subject. Not my fault!)
Had a row over the phone with Barclaycrud customer services advisers as the situation has still not been resolved. Was promised that a manager would call me back to sort the problem out. Expressed a certain degree of cynicism about whether or not that would actually happen. Was promised faithfully I would get a call back within a couple of hours.
Did I get a call back today?
Did I, fuck!
Useless Barclaycrud! Am renaming them BastardCrud from now on!
Woke up feeling all flu-ridden and crap again. Had to get back on the Lemsips and Strepsils as my throat had pretty much given up!
Stumbled into work. Tidied up a few loose ends. Arranged some visits and reviews. Filled in some forms - had a manic moment and got a case of the giggles thinking about Keith's party while completing someone's benefit application - now people in my office think I am a nutter! Almost fell asleep in a meeting (small room, no air, dull subject. Not my fault!)
Had a row over the phone with Barclaycrud customer services advisers as the situation has still not been resolved. Was promised that a manager would call me back to sort the problem out. Expressed a certain degree of cynicism about whether or not that would actually happen. Was promised faithfully I would get a call back within a couple of hours.
Did I get a call back today?
Did I, fuck!
Useless Barclaycrud! Am renaming them BastardCrud from now on!
Sunday, 24 February 2008
A Little Bit Of R&R If You Don't Mind!!
That's Rest and Recuperation to those who are wondering what the hell the title is on about!
Sunday - what a lazy day. After crashing at 6am, I stupidly woke up at about 10am! Goddamn body-clock! Grrr!
Spent pretty much all day lounging and napping and doing sod-all.
Sam in his fabness made bacon and mushroom quiche which was just what the doctor ordered. He kindly used the gluten-free flour I brought with me so that I could have some. It was superb and I think he should make it on a regular basis - not just for hangover food!
I'd pretty much recovered by the time hockey came around but it was hardly worth the effort of doing so.
Chelmsford lost 3-4 to Guildford. Not a bad score you might think - must have been an OK game...! Pft!! No!
That had to be the dullest game I've seen yet. We scored the first goal, conceded one about a millisecond later then Guildford went on and scored another 3 bringing their total to 4. We only just manged to claw back to 3-4 in the last five minutes of the game - the only point when it was actually watchable!
Sunday - what a lazy day. After crashing at 6am, I stupidly woke up at about 10am! Goddamn body-clock! Grrr!
Spent pretty much all day lounging and napping and doing sod-all.
Sam in his fabness made bacon and mushroom quiche which was just what the doctor ordered. He kindly used the gluten-free flour I brought with me so that I could have some. It was superb and I think he should make it on a regular basis - not just for hangover food!
I'd pretty much recovered by the time hockey came around but it was hardly worth the effort of doing so.
Chelmsford lost 3-4 to Guildford. Not a bad score you might think - must have been an OK game...! Pft!! No!
That had to be the dullest game I've seen yet. We scored the first goal, conceded one about a millisecond later then Guildford went on and scored another 3 bringing their total to 4. We only just manged to claw back to 3-4 in the last five minutes of the game - the only point when it was actually watchable!
Saturday, 23 February 2008
Birthday Cake, Guitar Heroes and Classic Movies!
Keith's Birthday Bash. Far from being the quiet night in he had expected, turned out to be a loud, fun-filled night with family and friends.
The evening started well with the traditional blowing out of the birthday candles (OK Keith - I concede - it does say 38 not 83!) ...
... followed by much posing during the compulsory Guitar Hero Rock-Offs!!
Aaron got his wish and was allowed to have one beer!
While much JD, Rum and a whole concoction of other boozyness was consumed by the rest of us! Here are some pics of us being not quite so elegantly wasted!
To cap the night off we stayed up until almost 6am (well some of us bailed at 5:30am after sharing the best part of 2 bottles of JD!) watching the following inspirational movies!
It was agreed - somewhat drunkenly - that getting pissed and watching movies was a fab idea and we should all meet up and do it on a regular basis!
The evening started well with the traditional blowing out of the birthday candles (OK Keith - I concede - it does say 38 not 83!) ...
... followed by much posing during the compulsory Guitar Hero Rock-Offs!!
Aaron got his wish and was allowed to have one beer!
While much JD, Rum and a whole concoction of other boozyness was consumed by the rest of us! Here are some pics of us being not quite so elegantly wasted!
To cap the night off we stayed up until almost 6am (well some of us bailed at 5:30am after sharing the best part of 2 bottles of JD!) watching the following inspirational movies!
It was agreed - somewhat drunkenly - that getting pissed and watching movies was a fab idea and we should all meet up and do it on a regular basis!
Bedded Bliss
Yeah - you wish I was going to write something hot and steamy!! hahahaha
No - just picked up my new £9.99 bargain bedframe! It is the whole bedframe - not just the headboard.
Keith is very kindly storing it for me in his garage for now.
Ebay is your friend!! Wahay!
No - just picked up my new £9.99 bargain bedframe! It is the whole bedframe - not just the headboard.
Keith is very kindly storing it for me in his garage for now.
Ebay is your friend!! Wahay!
Friday, 22 February 2008
Lasagne in SWF... AGAIN!!
Yay - Thank Crunchie Its Friday!!
Took the kids off out to Nandos for lunch (well breakfast in my case), went shopping in Sainsburys for gluten-free pasta and cake then dropped Gemima over at Mum's and Aaron and I trekked off to Keith's for the weekend.
Aaron was all excited to be seeing Sam again and because its Keith's birthday tomorrow and Aaron is hopeful he can persuade me to let him have beer!
Plans were afoot to buy Keith birthday cake from the kids as apparently he won't be expecting that so before he got home I was traipsing round ASDA, kids in tow, choosing more cake! I would have been excited but I can't have cake anyway being the gluten-intolerant weirdo that I am!
Made lasagne for dinner as requested - the usual two trays so that it lasts all weekend. I'm getting to be convinced that they think I can't actually cook anything else!
Lemsip started to wear off so I went for a sleep before Keith got back. Woke up at about 9:30pm to a big hug from Keith and a temperature from my bug!
Here's hoping I feel better tomorrow - I have to go pick up a bed I bought on Ebay. Bit of a bargain, iron bedframe from a guy in Chelmsford for £9.99! I don't care if its flimsy or needs sprucing up for that price!
Took the kids off out to Nandos for lunch (well breakfast in my case), went shopping in Sainsburys for gluten-free pasta and cake then dropped Gemima over at Mum's and Aaron and I trekked off to Keith's for the weekend.
Aaron was all excited to be seeing Sam again and because its Keith's birthday tomorrow and Aaron is hopeful he can persuade me to let him have beer!
Plans were afoot to buy Keith birthday cake from the kids as apparently he won't be expecting that so before he got home I was traipsing round ASDA, kids in tow, choosing more cake! I would have been excited but I can't have cake anyway being the gluten-intolerant weirdo that I am!
Made lasagne for dinner as requested - the usual two trays so that it lasts all weekend. I'm getting to be convinced that they think I can't actually cook anything else!
Lemsip started to wear off so I went for a sleep before Keith got back. Woke up at about 9:30pm to a big hug from Keith and a temperature from my bug!
Here's hoping I feel better tomorrow - I have to go pick up a bed I bought on Ebay. Bit of a bargain, iron bedframe from a guy in Chelmsford for £9.99! I don't care if its flimsy or needs sprucing up for that price!
Thursday, 21 February 2008
Flu and House Problems!
Feeling like something the cat chucked up today. I wandered downstairs this morning in my PJs and big fluffy dressing gown and Aaron took one look at me and said "Mum, you look like shit!"
From the mouths of babes eh... don't pull your punches there son!
Anyhow, felt crap enough that I couldn't face going into work.
Nick knocked on my bedroom door at about 8am to see if I was up and all I could manage was a croak. He did, very kindly, go and make me a Lemsip!
Spent the morning researching my mortgage options. Seems that Abbey won't consider me taking over the mortgage by myself on my salary. Bummer! Really don't want to lose the house.
Nick seems to be keen to push for a move. He is trying to persuade me that it will be a good opportunity for me and I should see it as positive. And in a way he has a point - this place needs work doing - electrics are old. need to install a combi-boiler as we only have an ancient old water tank, kitchen needs to be tiled and have floor laid and cupboard doors replaced; bathroom needs replacing as we currently have a sink with ambition rather than a bath as it is the smallest bathroom in the world!
Would be nice to move into a place where the bathroom doesn't need doing, the kitchen is useable and the heating system works without being plugged into an extension lead from across the room!!
That said - we converted the loft so this place has 4 bedrooms instead of 3. Where else could I have a 4 bedroom house for £660 a month (which is what the mortgage is currently)?
*sigh*
Have also put my name down on the local authority housing list... just in case.
I hate dealing with all this crap!
Fortunately, Keith recommended a good financial adviser who I have spoken to and who thinks he might be able to help. Fingers crossed!
From the mouths of babes eh... don't pull your punches there son!
Anyhow, felt crap enough that I couldn't face going into work.
Nick knocked on my bedroom door at about 8am to see if I was up and all I could manage was a croak. He did, very kindly, go and make me a Lemsip!
Spent the morning researching my mortgage options. Seems that Abbey won't consider me taking over the mortgage by myself on my salary. Bummer! Really don't want to lose the house.
Nick seems to be keen to push for a move. He is trying to persuade me that it will be a good opportunity for me and I should see it as positive. And in a way he has a point - this place needs work doing - electrics are old. need to install a combi-boiler as we only have an ancient old water tank, kitchen needs to be tiled and have floor laid and cupboard doors replaced; bathroom needs replacing as we currently have a sink with ambition rather than a bath as it is the smallest bathroom in the world!
Would be nice to move into a place where the bathroom doesn't need doing, the kitchen is useable and the heating system works without being plugged into an extension lead from across the room!!
That said - we converted the loft so this place has 4 bedrooms instead of 3. Where else could I have a 4 bedroom house for £660 a month (which is what the mortgage is currently)?
*sigh*
Have also put my name down on the local authority housing list... just in case.
I hate dealing with all this crap!
Fortunately, Keith recommended a good financial adviser who I have spoken to and who thinks he might be able to help. Fingers crossed!
Still Here!
For some reason the phone line did not get cut off yesterday!
Wonder how long it will be here for then...?
Wonder how long it will be here for then...?
Wednesday, 20 February 2008
Fab Earrings!
Slightly blurry but I had to post a pic of the fab earrings I was wearing today. Have had lots of comments on them!
They are Gemima's but I have temporarily stolen them!
They are Gemima's but I have temporarily stolen them!
Aaron's New Haircut!
My lunatic son went out with my Mum yesterday and had his hair cut... and hi-lighted!
He's gone from this....
to this!!
He's gone from this....
to this!!
Beer Warning!!!
Police are warning all clubbers, conference-goers and unsuspecting pub regulars to be alert and stay cautious when offered a drink from any woman.
A new date rape drug on the market called "beer" is used by many females to target unsuspecting men. The drug is generally found in liquid form and is now available almost anywhere. It comes in bottles, cans, from taps and in large "kegs".
"Beer" is used by female sexual predators at parties and bars to persuade their male victims to go home and have sex with them. Typically, a woman needs only to persuade a guy to consume a few units of "beer" and then simply ask him home for no strings attached sex. Men are rendered helpless against this approach.
After several "beers" men will often succumb to desires to perform sexual acts on horrific looking women to whom they would never normally be attracted. After drinking "beer" men often awaken with only hazy memories of exactly what happened to them the night before, often with just a vague feeling that something bad occurred.
At other times these unfortunate men are swindled out of their life's savings in a familiar scam known as "a relationship." It has been reported that in extreme cases, the female may even be shrewd enough to entrap the unsuspecting male into a longer term form of servitude and punishment referred to as "marriage". Apparently, men are much more susceptible to this scam after "beer" is administered and sex is offered by the predatory female.
Please! Give this warning to every male you know. However, if you fall victim to this insidious "beer" and the predatory women administering it, there are male support groups with venues in every town where you can discuss the details of your shocking encounter in an open and frank manner with similarly affected, like-minded guys.
For the support group nearest you, just look up "Golf Courses" in the yellow pages.
Understanding Computer Jargon
AlphaBeta
Computer
CPU
Default Directory
Error Message
File
Hardware
Help
Input / Output
Interim Release
Memory
Printer
Programmers
Reference Manual
Scheduled Release Date
User Friendly
Users
Software undergoes Alpha testing as a first step in getting user feedback.
Alpha is Latin for “doesn’t work”.
Beta
Software undergoes Beta testing shortly before its released.
Beta is Latin for “still doesn’t work”.
Computer
Instrument of torture. The first computer was invented by Roger “Duffy” Billinglsy, a British scientist. In a plot to overthrow Adolf Hitler, Duffy disguised himself as a German ally and offered his invention as a gift to the surly dictator. The plot worked. On
CPU
Central Propulsion Unit. The CPU is the computer’s engine. It consist of a hard drive, an interface card, and a tiny spinning wheel that’s powered by a running rodent – a gerbil if the machine is an old machine, a ferret if it’s a Pentium and a ferret on speed if it’s anything faster.
Default Directory
Black Hole. Default directory is where all the files that you need disappear to.
Error Message
Terse, baffling remark used by programmers to place blame on users for the program’s shortcoming.
File
A document that has been saved with an unidentifiable name. It helps to think of a file as something stored in a file cabinet – except when you try to remove the file, the cabinet gives you an electric shock and tells you the file format is unknown.
Hardware
Collective term for any computer-related object that can be kicked or battered.
Help
What we all need. Actually it’s the feature that assists in generating more questions. When the help feature is used correctly, users are able to navigate through a series of help screens and end up where they started from without learning anything.
Input / Output
Information is input from the keyboard as intelligible data and output to the printer as unrecognisable junk.
Interim Release
A programmer’s feeble attempt at repentance.
Memory
Of computer components, the most generous in terms of variety and the skimpiest in terms of quantity.
Printer
A joke in poor taste. A printer consists of three main parts: the case, the jammed paper tray and the blinking red light.
Programmers
Computer avengers. Once members of that group of high school nerds who wore tape on their glasses, played Dungeons and Dragons and memorised Star Trek episodes; now millionaires who create “user friendly” software to get their revenge.
Reference Manual
Object that raises the monitor to eye-level. Also used to compensate for that short table leg.
Scheduled Release Date
A carefully calculated date determined by estimating the actual shipping date and subtracting six months from it.
User Friendly
Of or pertaining to any feature, device or concept that makes perfect sense to a programmer.
Users
Collective term for those who stare vacantly at a monitor. Users are divided into three types: novice, intermediate and expert:
Novice:
People who are afraid that simply pressing a key might break their computer.
Intermediate:
People who don’t know how to fix their computers after they just pressed a key that broke it.
Expert:
People who break other people’s computers.
Useless Tit
And God created woman and she had 3 breasts.
He then asked the woman, "Is there anything you'd like to have changed?"
She replied, "Yes, could get rid of this middle breast?"
And so it was done, and it was good.
Then the woman exclaimed as she was holding the third breast in her hand,
"Lord, what can be done with this useless tit?"
So God created man.
Horrible Headache And Snotty Nose
Yep - that's what I have had all day and nothing is shifting it.
My voice has been getting steadily huskier as the day has gone on and I think there is a good possibility that it might disappear altogether by the end of tomorrow!
Yes, I know there might be some cheers about that!!!
Feel rough. Need sleep.
This might be the last blog for a while - Nick has cancelled the phone line and it is due to be cut off today apparently. Just luck that it happens to still be connected at the moment!
Will be getting it reconnected in my name but might take a while.
My voice has been getting steadily huskier as the day has gone on and I think there is a good possibility that it might disappear altogether by the end of tomorrow!
Yes, I know there might be some cheers about that!!!
Feel rough. Need sleep.
This might be the last blog for a while - Nick has cancelled the phone line and it is due to be cut off today apparently. Just luck that it happens to still be connected at the moment!
Will be getting it reconnected in my name but might take a while.
Tuesday, 19 February 2008
Blurgh
Today pretty much fuck all happened.
Nick tried and failed to be a grumpy bugger and get into a bit of an argument but I feel like crap today and can't be arsed.
Have headache brewing in the background - its been there all day and its not going away.
I don't want to have a cold!!!!
Nick tried and failed to be a grumpy bugger and get into a bit of an argument but I feel like crap today and can't be arsed.
Have headache brewing in the background - its been there all day and its not going away.
I don't want to have a cold!!!!
Wow - More Before and After
November 17 2007:
February 9 2008
Wow - haven't we changed in just under three months!!
February 9 2008
Wow - haven't we changed in just under three months!!
Monday, 18 February 2008
"Working" Late
Hadn't seen Keith all weekend because of going to Nan's. Didn't even manage my usual of trekking off to see the hockey as my Mum came along to Nan's too and wanted to stay for the whole weekend.
Can't possibly go for two weeks and not see each other so Keith and I met up after work for dinner at the O2, which was really nice.
Only got to spend a couple of hours together but it was a lovely couple of hours. Food at Nandos and coffee at Starbucks afterwards.
Its the first time I have seen Keith in a suit - and he looked FAB!
Off to Keith's for the weekend on Friday afternoon. Its his birthday Saturday and I have bought him prezzies which I am going to torment him with until I give them to him because I am a rotten bugger!!!
*cheesy grin*
Can't possibly go for two weeks and not see each other so Keith and I met up after work for dinner at the O2, which was really nice.
Only got to spend a couple of hours together but it was a lovely couple of hours. Food at Nandos and coffee at Starbucks afterwards.
Its the first time I have seen Keith in a suit - and he looked FAB!
Off to Keith's for the weekend on Friday afternoon. Its his birthday Saturday and I have bought him prezzies which I am going to torment him with until I give them to him because I am a rotten bugger!!!
*cheesy grin*
Sunday, 17 February 2008
Revelations...
Lounged around in bed until gone 10. Would have stayed later but the bed is like a slab of granite and my back hurt!
Went to the shops for a wander - found a fab purple lipliner - which was great because I have been looking for one for months now.
Roast Lamb with Buubble & Squeak for dinner. Yum!
Drove home at a reasonable time for a change.
Spent the evening chatting to Nick - Gemima informed him (in front of me) that she wants to live with me. I actually felt sorry for him then - it must have been a hard thing for him to hear.
I think spending the weekend alone has been quite a revelation to him and he has done a lot of soul-searching.
In terms of what we have tentatively agreed; the kids should live with me. He will help to ensure that this happens in a stable environment. He feels that I should take the mortgage over if the bank will allow me to and then look at selling the property when the kids have left home.
He also apologised for his recent behaviour. He did seem sincere too which was nice.
He also said he has realised that he misses me and that he misses the good times we had.
It was all a bit emotional but at least we are both hoping that we will come out of this with some level of friendship intact.
Will certainly be easier all round if we can.
Here's hoping.
Went to the shops for a wander - found a fab purple lipliner - which was great because I have been looking for one for months now.
Roast Lamb with Buubble & Squeak for dinner. Yum!
Drove home at a reasonable time for a change.
Spent the evening chatting to Nick - Gemima informed him (in front of me) that she wants to live with me. I actually felt sorry for him then - it must have been a hard thing for him to hear.
I think spending the weekend alone has been quite a revelation to him and he has done a lot of soul-searching.
In terms of what we have tentatively agreed; the kids should live with me. He will help to ensure that this happens in a stable environment. He feels that I should take the mortgage over if the bank will allow me to and then look at selling the property when the kids have left home.
He also apologised for his recent behaviour. He did seem sincere too which was nice.
He also said he has realised that he misses me and that he misses the good times we had.
It was all a bit emotional but at least we are both hoping that we will come out of this with some level of friendship intact.
Will certainly be easier all round if we can.
Here's hoping.
Saturday, 16 February 2008
Times, They May Be A-Changing....
Had a few texts from Nick while I was driving back from London to Bexhill after my rescue efforts earlier.
One was apologising for his behaviour when collecting the keys.
The others were an emotional but positive outpouring. And the last one even made me cry.
It would appear that Nick has come to some decisions which involve positive things for the children and now he wants us to sit and talk without fighting.
Will be interesting to see how sincere he is.
Here's hoping
One was apologising for his behaviour when collecting the keys.
The others were an emotional but positive outpouring. And the last one even made me cry.
It would appear that Nick has come to some decisions which involve positive things for the children and now he wants us to sit and talk without fighting.
Will be interesting to see how sincere he is.
Here's hoping
Rescue Run to London
OK - I know I'm a soft touch but it is bloody freezing and as it turnes out Nick did sleep ion his car last night and the temperature was -3.
I nipped of back from Bexhill to London - got a spare set of keys cut and met Nick in a cafe where I'd bumped into my brother and gave him the keys.
Did I get a thank you for driving for nearly 2 hours and forking out for new keys?
Did I hell!
I got bitched at and then told to fuck off - my brother got told to fuck off three times!
Nice.
*Sigh*
I nipped of back from Bexhill to London - got a spare set of keys cut and met Nick in a cafe where I'd bumped into my brother and gave him the keys.
Did I get a thank you for driving for nearly 2 hours and forking out for new keys?
Did I hell!
I got bitched at and then told to fuck off - my brother got told to fuck off three times!
Nice.
*Sigh*
Friday, 15 February 2008
Keyless Wonder!
Nick phoned Jade this evening at about 10.30 to say that he'd left his house keys at the office & is locked out!
Oh dear!
i've had 2 glasses of wine & can't drive. No-one in London has a set of keys!
I suppose he could always sleep in his car!
Oh dear!
i've had 2 glasses of wine & can't drive. No-one in London has a set of keys!
I suppose he could always sleep in his car!
Back To Bexhill
Have come to my Nan's again for the weekend. No internet access means I'm blogging from my phone; something I've not done for a while so hopefully it will work!
Nan made a nice dinner for us when we got here. she's a really good cook so it was worth the long drive! we shared a bittle of bubbly between the two of us, which was nice, as I rarely drink.
Better make this a short blog as I'm paying for connection by the millisecond with this phone!
Nan made a nice dinner for us when we got here. she's a really good cook so it was worth the long drive! we shared a bittle of bubbly between the two of us, which was nice, as I rarely drink.
Better make this a short blog as I'm paying for connection by the millisecond with this phone!
Thursday, 14 February 2008
Simple Psychology
Virgin Mobile's new ad....
"if it wasn't your Mother's fault, it was your Father's"
Excellent.
Made me laugh a lot, especially given my previous post!
"if it wasn't your Mother's fault, it was your Father's"
Excellent.
Made me laugh a lot, especially given my previous post!
Uncomfortably Numb
Today has been a strange day. I feel like I have been on a see-saw.
Started the morning with a text from a friend which put a smile on my face on and off for much of the day.
Thank you. You know who you are.
Nick thought it would be a good idea to start moaning at me right off the bat as I walked through the living room. He did it in front of the children too. No big surprise there - he only ever thinks of himself. As has become my habit I restrained myself and refused to argue.
Its getting increasingly difficult not to argue or tell him exactly what I think of him but I just keep thinking to myself that this is character building and it will all be over at some point soon.
Work has been busy but boring. I am bored with doing the same old crap all the time. I need a new challenge.
And for some reason - despite my feeling a little more positive yesterday and realising that everything happens for a reason - I have had a whole slew of things running through my head today. Things right from early childhood til now. Things which make me wonder why I even get up in the morning.
I feel like crap this evening. My head hurts and my heart hurts but I have to put on a happy face and smile for the children and pretend its all OK.
But I'm not OK.
I'm not OK with not being able to write what I really think or feel because of who may or may not read this.
I'm not OK with certain people who are supposed to love me unconditionally but it seems help me only when I am doing things for them when they want me to.
I'm not OK with being second best... second choice... whatever. Of never quite being good enough. Of being the fall-back option. Someone's bit on the side. That's happened to me too many times - more often than not without me realising it at first. Truth be told that's probably the key reason I was with Nick in the first place - he didn't have anyone else and I wasn't playing second fiddle.
I'm not OK with being someone's secret. Of being kept hidden away behind a wall of lies and secrecy. I've spent much of my life behind a wall. It's happened to me too many times - starting with my own father who kept me secret from his family for the first 16 years of my life and then got angry with me for telling them who I really was when they met me with him and thought I was his girlfriend. Apparently he would have rather they thought I was his girlfriend. How fucked up is that?
I'm trying to be positive. I'm trying to look at life from the top of my wall rather than from behind it. Trying to get a new perspective.
I'm writing what I feel now.
I'm doing the things I want to do when I want to do them. People around me will have to accept that I am my own person and have my own life. I can't always jump through hoops at their beck and call.
I'm not second best any more. I'll never have to settle for being second best any more. I have a choice. I can see that.
I'm not really someone's secret any more. For the most part. That goes hand in hand with refusing to be second best. I won't always be a secret and I know, logically that not all men are like my father. Now I just have to learn that emotionally and stop hiding myself away just because he hid me away.
I might need a little help to knock those walls down. But I have some good people in my life who I know will be there to help me. I hope will be there to help me.
I am not OK...
Yet...
But I will be.
Started the morning with a text from a friend which put a smile on my face on and off for much of the day.
Thank you. You know who you are.
Nick thought it would be a good idea to start moaning at me right off the bat as I walked through the living room. He did it in front of the children too. No big surprise there - he only ever thinks of himself. As has become my habit I restrained myself and refused to argue.
Its getting increasingly difficult not to argue or tell him exactly what I think of him but I just keep thinking to myself that this is character building and it will all be over at some point soon.
Work has been busy but boring. I am bored with doing the same old crap all the time. I need a new challenge.
And for some reason - despite my feeling a little more positive yesterday and realising that everything happens for a reason - I have had a whole slew of things running through my head today. Things right from early childhood til now. Things which make me wonder why I even get up in the morning.
I feel like crap this evening. My head hurts and my heart hurts but I have to put on a happy face and smile for the children and pretend its all OK.
But I'm not OK.
I'm not OK with not being able to write what I really think or feel because of who may or may not read this.
I'm not OK with certain people who are supposed to love me unconditionally but it seems help me only when I am doing things for them when they want me to.
I'm not OK with being second best... second choice... whatever. Of never quite being good enough. Of being the fall-back option. Someone's bit on the side. That's happened to me too many times - more often than not without me realising it at first. Truth be told that's probably the key reason I was with Nick in the first place - he didn't have anyone else and I wasn't playing second fiddle.
I'm not OK with being someone's secret. Of being kept hidden away behind a wall of lies and secrecy. I've spent much of my life behind a wall. It's happened to me too many times - starting with my own father who kept me secret from his family for the first 16 years of my life and then got angry with me for telling them who I really was when they met me with him and thought I was his girlfriend. Apparently he would have rather they thought I was his girlfriend. How fucked up is that?
I'm trying to be positive. I'm trying to look at life from the top of my wall rather than from behind it. Trying to get a new perspective.
I'm writing what I feel now.
I'm doing the things I want to do when I want to do them. People around me will have to accept that I am my own person and have my own life. I can't always jump through hoops at their beck and call.
I'm not second best any more. I'll never have to settle for being second best any more. I have a choice. I can see that.
I'm not really someone's secret any more. For the most part. That goes hand in hand with refusing to be second best. I won't always be a secret and I know, logically that not all men are like my father. Now I just have to learn that emotionally and stop hiding myself away just because he hid me away.
I might need a little help to knock those walls down. But I have some good people in my life who I know will be there to help me. I hope will be there to help me.
I am not OK...
Yet...
But I will be.
Valentines Blah
Wow
Its Valentines Day
Yip-fucking-pee
Don't know why I'm bothered by it this year.
Shithead never used to remember it anyway.
Can't remember the last time I got anything from anyone on Valentines Day (without Jade nagging someone to do it) anyway.
Blah... grumble grumble.
Its Valentines Day
Yip-fucking-pee
Don't know why I'm bothered by it this year.
Shithead never used to remember it anyway.
Can't remember the last time I got anything from anyone on Valentines Day (without Jade nagging someone to do it) anyway.
Blah... grumble grumble.
Wednesday, 13 February 2008
Flash!.... Aaaaaaaagh!
Did a home visit to one of my male clients today.
This client has a habit of opening the door in his boxers so I was somewhat relieved (initially) when he opened the door today wearing a pair of old-man pyjama bottoms - even if it was fast approaching midday.
A bit of a shock for me then when he sat down to talk to me and the front of the PJs just gaped open like a huge yawn to reveal parts of my client that I never ever wanted to even imagine!
Seriously - I could happily have lived my entire life without that image in my head!!
Still - at least he had the grace to look a little embarrassed. And I doubt he will be wearing those again next time I do a visit!
This client has a habit of opening the door in his boxers so I was somewhat relieved (initially) when he opened the door today wearing a pair of old-man pyjama bottoms - even if it was fast approaching midday.
A bit of a shock for me then when he sat down to talk to me and the front of the PJs just gaped open like a huge yawn to reveal parts of my client that I never ever wanted to even imagine!
Seriously - I could happily have lived my entire life without that image in my head!!
Still - at least he had the grace to look a little embarrassed. And I doubt he will be wearing those again next time I do a visit!
Choices...
The past few days have been a bit rubbish for me emotionally. Since Sunday evening I’ve been feeling a bit down... a bit angry... a bit sorry for myself... a bit fed up with everything.
You know those moments. The “poor me” times when you feel all unfocused and unsure of what’s going on or what the meaning of anything is any more.
I came to work this morning feeling exactly like that. Didn’t want to do anything... Couldn’t be arsed... Didn’t know why I do the job I do... Why I do anything that I do really...
A bit down about valentines day this week and what it means for me – or doesn’t mean for me, as the case may be.
I opened up Outlook, expecting the usual deluge of “I want this” and “Do this for me” type emails, to find tucked amongst the debris, the following little gem from one of my colleagues at the Learning Disability Team where I work.
The story within this email actually made me stop and look at the way I was thinking about things and remember that everything really does happen for a reason – even if we can’t really see what that reason is.
So, being the kind, thoughtful person that I am, I thought I would share it with you all – you lucky people. It's long... but persevere!
....At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that will never be forgotten by those who attended.
After extolling the virtues of the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. "I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped, comes into the world, an opportunity to realise true human nature presents itself and it comes in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his disability.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."
Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.
At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognising that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the ball and could have easily thrown it to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball... he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"
Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third!"
As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, "Shay, run home! Run home!" Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.
"That day", said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world. Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!"...
And for me – although the content of the story itself bears little relevance to what is happening in my life right now - the message does.
I’d like to think that the reason this particular (and unusual) story was sitting in my inbox this morning was to make me realise that actually, I am lucky. Even with all the things that are going on in my life at the moment – although much of it seems really unfair and I can’t see the reason for it – they are all part of a much bigger picture that maybe I just can't quite see yet.
And really, EVERYTHING does happen for a reason.
Tuesday, 12 February 2008
Divorce Update!
Had a letter from the solicitor confirming that they applied to the court for a date for pronouncement of Decree Nisi!
Hurrah!
Hurrah!
Monday, 11 February 2008
Grrr Argh Nurgle!
It's THAT time of the month again and I feel like something the cat coughed up!
Can't be arsed to write about anything.
Fuck all happened anyway.
Grumble Grumble...
Can't be arsed to write about anything.
Fuck all happened anyway.
Grumble Grumble...
Sunday, 10 February 2008
Chieftains Take Rim Raiders in 4-3 Surprise!
What can I say - FANTASTIC game!!
Chelmsford Chieftains -v- Romford Raiders.
The Chieftains played like they could actually play!
It was close the whole way through, ending on a 3-3 draw.
Went to penalties which saw no movement on the score and then to sudden death which saw the Chieftains get one in to take the game 4-3!!
Brilliant to watch! Only wish every game was as good.
I would say I'm looking forward to next weekend's game but sadly I am going to miss it.
*pout*
Chelmsford Chieftains -v- Romford Raiders.
The Chieftains played like they could actually play!
It was close the whole way through, ending on a 3-3 draw.
Went to penalties which saw no movement on the score and then to sudden death which saw the Chieftains get one in to take the game 4-3!!
Brilliant to watch! Only wish every game was as good.
I would say I'm looking forward to next weekend's game but sadly I am going to miss it.
*pout*
Saturday, 9 February 2008
Vendetta!
A fab night was had by all!
Keith and I got ourselves dressed up and trekked off to deepest, darkest Westcliff-on-Sea to the opening night of Vendetta.
Music was good, live band (Inertia) were good even if there were a few set problems!
And although Keith was his usual fabulous and sexy K.T.Glitz: Trash Queen Lollipop Shock self... it was generally agreed by the end of the night that the New Rocks looked fab but kill the feet and perhaps Madfish are generally the best bet for leaping about the dance floor like a loon!
Keith and I got ourselves dressed up and trekked off to deepest, darkest Westcliff-on-Sea to the opening night of Vendetta.
Music was good, live band (Inertia) were good even if there were a few set problems!
And although Keith was his usual fabulous and sexy K.T.Glitz: Trash Queen Lollipop Shock self... it was generally agreed by the end of the night that the New Rocks looked fab but kill the feet and perhaps Madfish are generally the best bet for leaping about the dance floor like a loon!
IKEA & TGIs
Intended to get up early and go to IKEA with Keith but ended up lazing about for half the morning watching DVD of Meet the Spartans which was mindless and silly but funny and perfect to watch on a lazy morning!
Sophie cooked breakfast for us all, which was lovely - despite the near-miss with food poisoning in the form of half-cooked sausages, which Sam very kindly went and re-cooked!
Eventually made it to IKEA and Keith and I spent a while pottering about looking at all the things we were definitely not going to buy!
Amazingly I left IKEA having only spent £4.99 on tea-lights!! Must be some kind of record for me - I usually go there with the intention of spending about £10.00 and end up coming out having spent closer to £100.00!
All that wandering and window shopping worked up an appetite and Keith and I opted for eating out rather than cooking - on the pretext that we would have to spend ages getting ready for Vendetta when we got back so there was no time for cooking anyway!
Ended up in TGI Friday's which was really nice - I've not been there for about 15 years! Ate far too much but was just too yummy!
Sophie cooked breakfast for us all, which was lovely - despite the near-miss with food poisoning in the form of half-cooked sausages, which Sam very kindly went and re-cooked!
Eventually made it to IKEA and Keith and I spent a while pottering about looking at all the things we were definitely not going to buy!
Amazingly I left IKEA having only spent £4.99 on tea-lights!! Must be some kind of record for me - I usually go there with the intention of spending about £10.00 and end up coming out having spent closer to £100.00!
All that wandering and window shopping worked up an appetite and Keith and I opted for eating out rather than cooking - on the pretext that we would have to spend ages getting ready for Vendetta when we got back so there was no time for cooking anyway!
Ended up in TGI Friday's which was really nice - I've not been there for about 15 years! Ate far too much but was just too yummy!
Friday, 8 February 2008
Fab Hair and Chinese Food!
I had the day off work today!! An actual day's leave as opposed to being off sick!
I took advantage of it and went to get my hair cut. Thought I'd better at least try and look presentable as I'm off out to Vendetta with Keith tomorrow night and he always looks fabulous!
Left London at about midday. Went to ASDA and did shopping then on to Keith's where I made Chinese food for dinner. Taught Sam how to use chopsticks which was fun to watch! I brought the chopsticks from home as Keith doesn't own anything so foolish as a chopstick!
Had a relatively relaxing night in watching Ice Hockey on TV and chilling out.
I took advantage of it and went to get my hair cut. Thought I'd better at least try and look presentable as I'm off out to Vendetta with Keith tomorrow night and he always looks fabulous!
Left London at about midday. Went to ASDA and did shopping then on to Keith's where I made Chinese food for dinner. Taught Sam how to use chopsticks which was fun to watch! I brought the chopsticks from home as Keith doesn't own anything so foolish as a chopstick!
Had a relatively relaxing night in watching Ice Hockey on TV and chilling out.
Irresponsible Fuckhead Strikes Again!!!
Got a call from Mum at about 8:30ish to say that Nick had still not come to collect Gemima from her.
Apparently Jade had called and he'd said that he didn't leave work til 8pm but when Jade challenged him it turned out that he was in the pub but he hadn't bothered to let anyone know he was going!
Mum was a tad pissed off at this - as you'd expect - especially when she heard Jade say to Nick that if he turned up drunk then she wouldn't let him take Gemima.
My Mum took the phone off Jade and listened to whatever rubbish he was spouting before interrupting him and reading him the riot act for taking the piss and just expecting her to babysit without actually asking her to.
Apparently at that point he became a bit confused and said something along the lines of "oh, its you Gail, you sounded like Jade there." Wow - he must have had... oh... at least a pint to be so muddled and easily confused as to think he must have been talking to my Mum all along!
And we all know from past posts just how well he can hold his drink!
In the end Gemima had to stay over at Mum's - she went to bed very upset at about 9.30pm - two hours after her usual bedtime. Poor kid was very confused about the sudden change in her routine - especially as she had no overnight stuff and no teddy!
Selfish thoughtless bastard!
Apparently Jade had called and he'd said that he didn't leave work til 8pm but when Jade challenged him it turned out that he was in the pub but he hadn't bothered to let anyone know he was going!
Mum was a tad pissed off at this - as you'd expect - especially when she heard Jade say to Nick that if he turned up drunk then she wouldn't let him take Gemima.
My Mum took the phone off Jade and listened to whatever rubbish he was spouting before interrupting him and reading him the riot act for taking the piss and just expecting her to babysit without actually asking her to.
Apparently at that point he became a bit confused and said something along the lines of "oh, its you Gail, you sounded like Jade there." Wow - he must have had... oh... at least a pint to be so muddled and easily confused as to think he must have been talking to my Mum all along!
And we all know from past posts just how well he can hold his drink!
In the end Gemima had to stay over at Mum's - she went to bed very upset at about 9.30pm - two hours after her usual bedtime. Poor kid was very confused about the sudden change in her routine - especially as she had no overnight stuff and no teddy!
Selfish thoughtless bastard!
Thursday, 7 February 2008
Update On Nick's Canadian Relative...
Well apparently he can't get through to the Uni at all. What a surprise!
He has now spoken to the local police.
Well that inspires confidence!
I am sure they will go racing out there to check it out immediately as there is nothing better for them to do.
Pft!
He has now spoken to the local police.
Well that inspires confidence!
I am sure they will go racing out there to check it out immediately as there is nothing better for them to do.
Pft!
The Idiot Is Grounded!
Got a text from Shithead at about 11am saying he's had a letter from DVLA and his driving licence has been withdrawn!
He has to re-take his test every three years and will get a temporary licence each time if he passes.
This does of course mean that he is not able to drive his car any more until he has passed his test again.
Which also means I have to do all the running around for the kids and all the shopping...
Oh wait...
I do all that already...
So I suppose it means he has to get public transport to work instead of driving...
Oh wait...
He said he might give up work now...
So I suppose then it means he will just have to walk to the damn shops to get his fags then...
...provided he has any money after he has given up his job!
*sigh*
For Fuck's Sake!!
He has to re-take his test every three years and will get a temporary licence each time if he passes.
This does of course mean that he is not able to drive his car any more until he has passed his test again.
Which also means I have to do all the running around for the kids and all the shopping...
Oh wait...
I do all that already...
So I suppose it means he has to get public transport to work instead of driving...
Oh wait...
He said he might give up work now...
So I suppose then it means he will just have to walk to the damn shops to get his fags then...
...provided he has any money after he has given up his job!
*sigh*
For Fuck's Sake!!
Return of the Angry Nick
OMG - it was WW3 this morning!
Well not quite - but it could have been if I had not kept a tight reign on my temper and made myself not respond to El Shitebag on the two separate occasions that he thought it would be good to start shouting at me.
First occasion was in Gemima's bedroom. I went to get her up and ready for school but she had decided that she was not getting up let alone getting dressed and going to school!
I'm not taking any crap from a stroppy seven-year-old so I pulled the covers off, lifted her off the bed and stood her on her feet. She had a bit of a strop and refused to get dressed, so I dressed her.
She started shouting "I want Daddy!" to which I responded "Why do you want Daddy? Do you think he is going to let you do what you want? He won't, he'll tell you to get dressed too!!"
El Shitebag was eavesdropping at the bottom of the stairs and when he heard me say this, he started bellowing at me up the stairs, thinking that I had said something different. He came into the room where I was dressing Gemima and was shouting about how I should not assume that he always gives her what she wants and how I should not assume anything about what he would or would not say to her.
Good going arsehole - as if she wasn't playing one off against the other enough already - you just went ahead and gave her permission! Moron!
I refused to argue with him after he wouldn't listen to what I had actually said and just had to repeat about eight times "I am not arguing with you, talk to me later".
He then stormed out of Gemima's room as Aaron was coming out of his room and shouted at Aaron, accused him of eavesdropping and told him to get back in his room!
Poor kid hadn't done anything wrong!
The second occasion happened outside the school after Gemima had gone in to her class.
The Idiot was walking back to his car and decided to 'talk' to me about the kids going to my Mum's after school.
And get this - in his twisted little world, my paying my Mum £40 a month and her subsidising the rest to feed the kids after school each day is just designed to make him look bad and make it look like I am doing everything!
He is just pissed off because it doesn't fit with his Gold-digger theory!
When I tried to explain that it is better for them to eat at my Mum's when they finish school rather than be hungry until we get home and can cook (at about 6:30 or 7pm), he got really angry and started shouting and swearing at me in the street, at first just telling me to fuck off but when I responded by (calmly) telling him that he was being unreasonable he really lost it and I got called a few choice names into the bargain. I did tell him he was pathetic as I got into my car and before I shut the door I am pretty certain I heard "Cunt" and "Bitch" coming in my direction too.
Took a lot of willpower for me to remain calm and not chase him and punch his lights out!
Although once he had gone I realised how upset I was at being screamed at in the street and spent a while bending Keith's ear over the phone (thank you SO much Keith) until I was calm enough to drive to work.
God - can't wait til this is all over!
Well not quite - but it could have been if I had not kept a tight reign on my temper and made myself not respond to El Shitebag on the two separate occasions that he thought it would be good to start shouting at me.
First occasion was in Gemima's bedroom. I went to get her up and ready for school but she had decided that she was not getting up let alone getting dressed and going to school!
I'm not taking any crap from a stroppy seven-year-old so I pulled the covers off, lifted her off the bed and stood her on her feet. She had a bit of a strop and refused to get dressed, so I dressed her.
She started shouting "I want Daddy!" to which I responded "Why do you want Daddy? Do you think he is going to let you do what you want? He won't, he'll tell you to get dressed too!!"
El Shitebag was eavesdropping at the bottom of the stairs and when he heard me say this, he started bellowing at me up the stairs, thinking that I had said something different. He came into the room where I was dressing Gemima and was shouting about how I should not assume that he always gives her what she wants and how I should not assume anything about what he would or would not say to her.
Good going arsehole - as if she wasn't playing one off against the other enough already - you just went ahead and gave her permission! Moron!
I refused to argue with him after he wouldn't listen to what I had actually said and just had to repeat about eight times "I am not arguing with you, talk to me later".
He then stormed out of Gemima's room as Aaron was coming out of his room and shouted at Aaron, accused him of eavesdropping and told him to get back in his room!
Poor kid hadn't done anything wrong!
The second occasion happened outside the school after Gemima had gone in to her class.
The Idiot was walking back to his car and decided to 'talk' to me about the kids going to my Mum's after school.
And get this - in his twisted little world, my paying my Mum £40 a month and her subsidising the rest to feed the kids after school each day is just designed to make him look bad and make it look like I am doing everything!
He is just pissed off because it doesn't fit with his Gold-digger theory!
When I tried to explain that it is better for them to eat at my Mum's when they finish school rather than be hungry until we get home and can cook (at about 6:30 or 7pm), he got really angry and started shouting and swearing at me in the street, at first just telling me to fuck off but when I responded by (calmly) telling him that he was being unreasonable he really lost it and I got called a few choice names into the bargain. I did tell him he was pathetic as I got into my car and before I shut the door I am pretty certain I heard "Cunt" and "Bitch" coming in my direction too.
Took a lot of willpower for me to remain calm and not chase him and punch his lights out!
Although once he had gone I realised how upset I was at being screamed at in the street and spent a while bending Keith's ear over the phone (thank you SO much Keith) until I was calm enough to drive to work.
God - can't wait til this is all over!
Wednesday, 6 February 2008
And today....
.... Fuck All Happened!!
Was on duty but it was fairly easy.
Worked a bit late showing a client around a potential new placement.
Listened to Marilyn Manson very loudly in the car on the way home.
Ate crap for dinner and regretted it almost immediately because now I feel sick.
That's pretty much it.
Might even have an early night! Who knows!
Was on duty but it was fairly easy.
Worked a bit late showing a client around a potential new placement.
Listened to Marilyn Manson very loudly in the car on the way home.
Ate crap for dinner and regretted it almost immediately because now I feel sick.
That's pretty much it.
Might even have an early night! Who knows!
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
Nick's Now Not Away At All!!
Well, he HAD done the washing up when I got back.
He'd also emptied the bins and tidied up a bit - so that was good.
BUT...
He was still here when I walked through the door this evening.
Apparently the whole family reunion thing was cancelled this afternoon at 4pm. By all accounts, the relative who was coming from Canada was in a car crash on the way to the airport.
Nick received a text asking for £4,500... to be sent to a school in Nigeria!
Sound a bit fishy to anyone? Sounds like a big old scam to me!
Nick was a bit stressed when I came in trying to think of how to raise funds... until I asked why a relative flying from Canada was in Nigeria (not a natural stop-off point from Canada to the UK, surely!) and why a hospital was asking for £4,500 for an operation which the Canadian embassy should be dealing with and why indeed would a hospital ask for it to be sent to some school!? And why text and ask Nick?
I think that its likely this relative's phone was nicked and this is all a big scam. Hopefully his other relatives aren't falling for it and haven't paid anything. Poor buggers from Canada are probably freezing their arses off at Heathrow waiting for Nick and unable to phone because they've had their mobile stolen!!
Maybe this will be a little bit exciting after all!
He'd also emptied the bins and tidied up a bit - so that was good.
BUT...
He was still here when I walked through the door this evening.
Apparently the whole family reunion thing was cancelled this afternoon at 4pm. By all accounts, the relative who was coming from Canada was in a car crash on the way to the airport.
Nick received a text asking for £4,500... to be sent to a school in Nigeria!
Sound a bit fishy to anyone? Sounds like a big old scam to me!
Nick was a bit stressed when I came in trying to think of how to raise funds... until I asked why a relative flying from Canada was in Nigeria (not a natural stop-off point from Canada to the UK, surely!) and why a hospital was asking for £4,500 for an operation which the Canadian embassy should be dealing with and why indeed would a hospital ask for it to be sent to some school!? And why text and ask Nick?
I think that its likely this relative's phone was nicked and this is all a big scam. Hopefully his other relatives aren't falling for it and haven't paid anything. Poor buggers from Canada are probably freezing their arses off at Heathrow waiting for Nick and unable to phone because they've had their mobile stolen!!
Maybe this will be a little bit exciting after all!
Nick's Now Away Til Sunday!
Well as it turns out, Nick's few days away is far from a dirty weekend. He is off to a family reunion on his Mum's side of the family. Ah well... it could have been exciting!
He spoke to me this morning and mentioned that he would be at his Aunt's until Sunday but that he would like to take Gemima with him. He looked very apprehensive when he made the suggestion and seemed totally shocked when I said I thought it was a good idea. He is picking up relatives from Canada at Heathrow this evening.
Gemima is all excited about meeting new family members but sad that I won't be there. She accepted that I have to go to work and she has got a little notebook and is going to keep a diary and draw pictures and take photos.
Nick seemed so pleased that I was positively encouraging him to take Gemima that he even agreed to do his washing up which has been in the kitchen since last week.
Haven't been home yet so I'll have to wait and see whether he actually did it or not!
He spoke to me this morning and mentioned that he would be at his Aunt's until Sunday but that he would like to take Gemima with him. He looked very apprehensive when he made the suggestion and seemed totally shocked when I said I thought it was a good idea. He is picking up relatives from Canada at Heathrow this evening.
Gemima is all excited about meeting new family members but sad that I won't be there. She accepted that I have to go to work and she has got a little notebook and is going to keep a diary and draw pictures and take photos.
Nick seemed so pleased that I was positively encouraging him to take Gemima that he even agreed to do his washing up which has been in the kitchen since last week.
Haven't been home yet so I'll have to wait and see whether he actually did it or not!
Monday, 4 February 2008
Nick's "Friend" And A Few Days Away
Nick is going away for a few days....
He's off tomorrow afternoon and not back til Thursday.
He told me this with a slight challenge in his voice. I think he was hoping I would want to know where he's going. He seems a little disappointed that my only reaction was "fine - no problem - I'll do the school run."
Personally I hope he is off for a dirty weekend with someone - the man needs to get laid - he is too up himself!
He has made his car all pretty too - all nice and washed and with new hubcaps. He has also cleaned it out - I know this because all the shite that is usually to be found strewn about his car is currently sitting in a heap in a corner of my living room!
He's gone out tonight too. To see a "friend" apparently.
Hehehehehehehe!!!! Watch this space!
He's off tomorrow afternoon and not back til Thursday.
He told me this with a slight challenge in his voice. I think he was hoping I would want to know where he's going. He seems a little disappointed that my only reaction was "fine - no problem - I'll do the school run."
Personally I hope he is off for a dirty weekend with someone - the man needs to get laid - he is too up himself!
He has made his car all pretty too - all nice and washed and with new hubcaps. He has also cleaned it out - I know this because all the shite that is usually to be found strewn about his car is currently sitting in a heap in a corner of my living room!
He's gone out tonight too. To see a "friend" apparently.
Hehehehehehehe!!!! Watch this space!
Computerised Car Crap!
Sodding car! Had it less than two months and already the thing is playing up!
Over the last few weeks it has periodically cut out at random moments - usually when I've been driving around for a bit and am approaching a junction or lights and am slowing down. At first I thought maybe it was because the car is new and the biting point is different and perhaps I was stalling it - but after paying very close attention, it's definitely not that. Then I thought perhaps the battery is a bit crap and needs replacing - as it seemed to happen if I had wipers and headlights and AC and radio on all at the same time. But then it happened in broad daylight during nice sunny day so no wipers or headlights or AC on at all!
Then I thought maybe the timing was off. Last night on the way home it decided it would be a really good idea for the engine to cut out while I was doing about 50mph between the A130 and the A127! I managed to stop just short of the roundabout and it took several attempts to get the damn thing started again!
Took it into the garage today for them to look at. Turns out its not the clutch, or the battery or even the timing.
No - it was the stupid on board computer thingy that manages all the car functions! Apparently this computer had decided that the build-up of vapour in my exhaust valve was a fault and was making the unilateral decision to shut the sodding engine off - regardless of what the engine happened to be doing at the time!
Anyhow - the nice man at Vauxhall tweeked it a bit and essentially the computer in my car no longer recognises my exhaust valve vapours as a fault - in fact - it no longer even acknowledges or is aware of my exhaust valve at all! Hopefully I won't develop a real fault with it then or I'm fooked!! lol
Still - at least the car is running nicely again now. I think they must have given it a bit of a tune-up because it sounds different and the idle speed was sitting at around 1000 rpm instead of 750rpm when I picked it up again.
All covered by my warranty too so nothing to pay. Wahay!
Over the last few weeks it has periodically cut out at random moments - usually when I've been driving around for a bit and am approaching a junction or lights and am slowing down. At first I thought maybe it was because the car is new and the biting point is different and perhaps I was stalling it - but after paying very close attention, it's definitely not that. Then I thought perhaps the battery is a bit crap and needs replacing - as it seemed to happen if I had wipers and headlights and AC and radio on all at the same time. But then it happened in broad daylight during nice sunny day so no wipers or headlights or AC on at all!
Then I thought maybe the timing was off. Last night on the way home it decided it would be a really good idea for the engine to cut out while I was doing about 50mph between the A130 and the A127! I managed to stop just short of the roundabout and it took several attempts to get the damn thing started again!
Took it into the garage today for them to look at. Turns out its not the clutch, or the battery or even the timing.
No - it was the stupid on board computer thingy that manages all the car functions! Apparently this computer had decided that the build-up of vapour in my exhaust valve was a fault and was making the unilateral decision to shut the sodding engine off - regardless of what the engine happened to be doing at the time!
Anyhow - the nice man at Vauxhall tweeked it a bit and essentially the computer in my car no longer recognises my exhaust valve vapours as a fault - in fact - it no longer even acknowledges or is aware of my exhaust valve at all! Hopefully I won't develop a real fault with it then or I'm fooked!! lol
Still - at least the car is running nicely again now. I think they must have given it a bit of a tune-up because it sounds different and the idle speed was sitting at around 1000 rpm instead of 750rpm when I picked it up again.
All covered by my warranty too so nothing to pay. Wahay!
Sunday, 3 February 2008
If Last Week's Hockey Match Was The Dullest Yet...
... then this week's was by far the most frustrating!
The first period was good. The Chieftains came out in fighting spirit but were just unlucky and it ended up 1-0 to MK Lightning.
Second period... well God only knows what happened during the second period... it must have been another team because the Chieftains were playing like they really couldn't be arsed. Very frustrating to watch - especially when MK scored with ONE SECOND left! Aaargh!
Third period looked like it was going to be a repeat of the second when MK went up to 3-0 but for some reason the Chieftains seemed to wake up in the last 10 minutes and scored 2, followed by MK scoring their 4th and then Chieftains scoring their 3rd in the last couple of minutes. So overall a fairly respectable 3-4 result but it would have been so much better if they had played consistently the whole way through.
Most memorable part of the match: the ref getting hit in the elbow by the puck and someone from the crowd shouting "If you'd been watching the game you'd have seen that coming!".
The first period was good. The Chieftains came out in fighting spirit but were just unlucky and it ended up 1-0 to MK Lightning.
Second period... well God only knows what happened during the second period... it must have been another team because the Chieftains were playing like they really couldn't be arsed. Very frustrating to watch - especially when MK scored with ONE SECOND left! Aaargh!
Third period looked like it was going to be a repeat of the second when MK went up to 3-0 but for some reason the Chieftains seemed to wake up in the last 10 minutes and scored 2, followed by MK scoring their 4th and then Chieftains scoring their 3rd in the last couple of minutes. So overall a fairly respectable 3-4 result but it would have been so much better if they had played consistently the whole way through.
Most memorable part of the match: the ref getting hit in the elbow by the puck and someone from the crowd shouting "If you'd been watching the game you'd have seen that coming!".
Dossy Sunday
What a lazy day. Did bugger-all today. Fantastic!!!
Got up late. Keith made breakfast - a fry-up! Wahay!
Sam went out to see his friends and Keith and I dossed on the sofa and watched ice hockey. I fell asleep again (exhausted from all the sleeping I'd been doing all night no doubt!) and woke up to rugby on the TV - which was momentarily quite confusing as I was fairly sure I'd only blinked and we'd gone from hockey to rugby!
Planned on going to Argos to get some bits for Keith but never quite got that far as lazing about seemed to be far more appealing.
Eventually managed to haul our arses off the sofa and get to the rink to watch the Chieftains play.
Its a tough job - but someone's got to do it!
Got up late. Keith made breakfast - a fry-up! Wahay!
Sam went out to see his friends and Keith and I dossed on the sofa and watched ice hockey. I fell asleep again (exhausted from all the sleeping I'd been doing all night no doubt!) and woke up to rugby on the TV - which was momentarily quite confusing as I was fairly sure I'd only blinked and we'd gone from hockey to rugby!
Planned on going to Argos to get some bits for Keith but never quite got that far as lazing about seemed to be far more appealing.
Eventually managed to haul our arses off the sofa and get to the rink to watch the Chieftains play.
Its a tough job - but someone's got to do it!
Saturday, 2 February 2008
Fab Burgers and Wrestling DVDs
Spent the evening chilling out and dossing on Keith's sofa. Sam very kindly made his fab burgers for us which were yummy as usual and I ate far too much!
Watched some dodgy wrestling DVD's - insane Japanese ones - a far cry from the theatrical WWE wrestling. A bit much for me in parts tho.
Watched some dodgy wrestling DVD's - insane Japanese ones - a far cry from the theatrical WWE wrestling. A bit much for me in parts tho.
Miracles DO Happen!
Dropped Aaron at my Mums at about 11am and then went for breakfast with the kids, my Mum and my brother Jamie.
Got back to my house at 1pm to find that Nick was nowhere to be seen. Even though he had been complaining about me taking her out and had said that he wanted to take her to the park. He'd ignored my texts this morning saying that I was coming back and asking what time he wanted to take her out.
He ignored my text at 1:30 saying we were home and she was ready.
So at 1.50 I texted him saying that I had been trying to get hold of him yesterday and today and that at 2:30 I will be leaving to go to Chelmsford. If he was not back or if I had not heard from him by then I would take Gemima with me.
Well bloody hell. Within a minute a miracle happened. He phoned!
Apparently his phone had been on silent and he had only just got all my texts from the last two days. How convenient!
He was back on the dot in time for me to leave. Tried to start an argument which I again refused to engage in - it seems to be the best tactic for dealing with him.
Got back to my house at 1pm to find that Nick was nowhere to be seen. Even though he had been complaining about me taking her out and had said that he wanted to take her to the park. He'd ignored my texts this morning saying that I was coming back and asking what time he wanted to take her out.
He ignored my text at 1:30 saying we were home and she was ready.
So at 1.50 I texted him saying that I had been trying to get hold of him yesterday and today and that at 2:30 I will be leaving to go to Chelmsford. If he was not back or if I had not heard from him by then I would take Gemima with me.
Well bloody hell. Within a minute a miracle happened. He phoned!
Apparently his phone had been on silent and he had only just got all my texts from the last two days. How convenient!
He was back on the dot in time for me to leave. Tried to start an argument which I again refused to engage in - it seems to be the best tactic for dealing with him.
Girls Night at Karen's
Thank you to my lovely friend Karen for a great evening.
Took the kids over to Karen's for dinner last and stayed the night. Was great to catch up with her and spend some time being girly and silly over a bottle of wine once the kids had gone to bed.
And despite his insistence that I let Gemima call him to say goodnight and that I let him know what time I am bringing her home on Saturday, Nick did not respond to any of my text and did not answer the phone when Gemima called to say goodnight.
What a dickhead!
Took the kids over to Karen's for dinner last and stayed the night. Was great to catch up with her and spend some time being girly and silly over a bottle of wine once the kids had gone to bed.
And despite his insistence that I let Gemima call him to say goodnight and that I let him know what time I am bringing her home on Saturday, Nick did not respond to any of my text and did not answer the phone when Gemima called to say goodnight.
What a dickhead!
Friday, 1 February 2008
Petitions and Affidavits...
Ha! Despite telling me all along that he is refusing to sign the divorce petition, I picked up my post this lunchtime to find two letters from my solicitor; one saying that Nick has signed the petition with a copy showing that he signed on 7th January; the other was the affidavit for me to swear!
Hurrah!
Will get that sworn in front of another solicitor as soon as I can during the week and then my solicitor can press ahead for a date for the Decree Nisi.
Yes!!!
Hurrah!
Will get that sworn in front of another solicitor as soon as I can during the week and then my solicitor can press ahead for a date for the Decree Nisi.
Yes!!!
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