Strange Days Indeed

Today was just weird.

I feel numb.

Emotionally drained and very insecure.

Just want to cry but for some reason I can't seem to let it out. Don't know why.

Keith told me to either stop it or let it out but not to do the halfway thing of pretending I'm OK when I'm clearly not.

If only it were that easy.

I really didn't want to come back to London today. But for the first time since I have been coming to Keith's, I felt like I was intruding and shouldn't be there. Its a horrible feeling and I think is probably only in my own head because Sam was asking if I could stay an extra few days and Keith didn't seem to be that freaked out by the suggestion - although he knew it wasn't possible so I suppose he wouldn't have to be freaked out.

Train journey took 1 hour 20 mins from South Woodham to North Greenwich. Bus journey from North Greenwich to Eltham took 1 hour 15 mins! Go figure!

Nick was out when we got back. Aaron went off with my brother to stay at my Mum's for a few days and then I got Gemima settled. Nick got home well after 10pm.

Sigh. Now I've just got to get the car sorted first thing tomorrow.

Oh joy.