Wading Through Syrup

That's what my life feels like at the moment.

What with the court fiasco last week on top of feeling battered and bruised, dealing with insurance claims, being told by work that I cannot resume until the GP gives me a certificate to say I am fit to do so (which he has refused to do) and trying to plough my way through the tome that is Nick's financial statement, it all feels just a little bit too much to cope with.

Not to mention the NVQ assignment that I am supposed to have done by 15th - there is no way that is happening!

Still - could be worse - as my sister pointed out - at least I feel like I am wading through syrup and not wading through shit!

Although, come to think of it.....

Keith was a star. He came up with a whole list of things to ask my solicitor (he is pissed off that Nick named him in the court documents).

It was good to have that support. Just as it was good to have Karen with me at the court last week. I feel so much like I am battling through things alone sometimes that its good to be reminded that there are people who are there for me and I don't always have to do it all by myself.

Sometimes its hard to admit that I can't and I have to remind myself that it is actually OK to ask for help.

I am feeling strangely displaced again and my head is still bouncing about like a yoyo but I do feel a little more focused since Keith sat and went through the Form E (finance stuff) with me.

After going to the solicitors, I went to the house to collect some things. The solicitor has advised me that as I am no longer able to live at the house due to Nick's behaviour then I am within my rights to stop paying towards the mortgage.

So, given that next month I will have a grand total of £bugger.all coming in because I've not been able to go into work, I have decided that this month's salary needs to stretch as far as possible to the end of Jan, therefore I am going to be a phenomenally tight-fisted bugger (good job i already got most xmas prezzies) and am no longer going to be subsidising nick and his brother to live in the house.

Oh yes, and I removed my internet hub from the house and took meter readings for gas and electric, as they are in my name only and I am cancelling them! If Nick wants light, heat and an internet connection he can pay for it.

Amusing hi-light of the day - going through Nick's form E to find a £60 payment for a subscription to dateline.com!