Clearing Out The Crap!

OK - today has been a bizarre mixture of good and stressy!

When I got back to the house last night I discovered that Nick has buggered off for a few days / week / 2 weeks - he doesn't know how long. He won't say where he is, other than telling Gemima he was in a "sort of hospital like place" where he is being looked after.

Its his turn with Gemima this weekend but as he left a message on my voicemail this morning and mentioned being on a steroid drip, I am not leaving her with him even if he does come back in time.

The last time he came off a steroid drip was 22 November - see my blog on that day if you want to know how agressive he can get after coming off a steroid drip!

Anyhow - him being away for a while is good - I started tidying up yesterday but had a total blitz on the kitchen this evening and cleared out loads of crap. Have made a slight dent on the living room but that really is a total shite-hole and full of Nick's stuff and will probably take a good few days to clear. But its a start.

I figured that I might as well start preparing now in case I have to move... and if I end up not having to move, then I have a clutter-free house which will be easier to decorate properly!

Stressy because I am still having to deal with my financial crap and those who know me will know I hate dealing with my financial crap!

Also stressy because Keith went out tonight with Gloria, Sharon's Mum. I knew he was a bit anxious about it, which in turn made me anxious about it and I've sort of been tied up in knots for most of the afternoon. I was trying (not successfully) not to build emotional walls and run away and hide but it was difficult.

He called when he got back just before 10pm to say that actually he'd had a good time and there had been no agenda to her wanting to see him, which was a relief for him and therefore for me. He did sound happy and told me I can stop building my emotional walls up now!

He'll be glad to know I've fired the construction company for the moment then!

As far as the house goes, I think I might tackle my bedroom next. I am tempted to dismantle the bed and drag it down to the end of the garden ready for burning!

Now there's a nice thought. Might do that Thursday as I'm going out tomorrow night.

So - tonight I am getting stuff ready so I can take my housing application form to the council, collect some stuff from my solicitors and drop other stuff off to my solicitors, drop the kids at Mum's then meet Keith to go off to Hampton Court for 9pm to see Rufus.

Am SO looking forward to that. Will be lovely to be just the two of us for a while.