Been a while...

Been a very long while actually - I've not blogged properly for quite some time.

But you know how it is - when there's been SO much going on, your brain just doesn't want to revisit it all at the end of each day.

I've had a rollercoaster of a couple of months and some days I have felt like my head was about to explode.

In fact on Monday it really felt like it had, because I had one of the worst migraines I've had in a very, very long time.

Divorce is still in progress. He is going from being an arse to being reasonably human (ish). Although in a new development he has now started recording my phone calls with Gemima when I call to say goodnight to her on his weekends with her. He also tries to goad me into saying things that will make me look bad and him look like the poor hard-done-by victim.

Not going to work!

I am REALLY not that stupid!

Did do all the financial forms but his vulture of a solicitor is asking for more info which I really can't be arsed to provide to be honest! I don't see why she needs 12 months worth of bank statements. I haven't been putting my salary into that account for 12 months for a start. Plus its all been done on a voluntary basis and its not even part of a court process (yet) anyhow!

Plus its none of her fucking business!

I am definitely pushing for this house to be sold. Things have got to the point where none of us want to be here - kids included. Far better to sell now, pay off debts, move into council place for a bit until more appealing options can be feasibly considered.

Bastardcard are still bastards and have not resolved the issue at all! Debt collectors are phoning now. Oh joy!

On a positive note - they have managed to sort out the duplicate card and that now has a zero balance so that's one less thing to worry about.

As for the rest of it - well - you know what its like when you have a ton of things to do and organise and you know you should do them quite urgently but you really can't be arsed because it drags you down so far? I have a fair bit of that going on.

All procrastination, I know but nevertheless, I don't need to be continuously dragged down by all this divorce shite.


...and then there's Keith.

Wow - what a doozy of an emotional rollercoaster this last week has been. Not even sure I want to write about it all but I do want to say that fortunately I was able to tell him just a teensy bit of some things I'd wanted to say for a while but hadn't known how to. The other things I needed to say he managed to work out for himself and told me which was SUCH a relief.

He also said a few things that I really needed to hear and which went much further than I had expected.

In terms of our relationship, I feel far more secure and happier now than I have done yet. There's been a really big step forward and its all good.

That part of my life is all really good.

Aaron's been away on a school holiday in Wales since Monday. I have taken a couple of hours out so I can pick him up when he gets back at 3:30 (ish). I've really missed him this week.

For those of you who want to know a bit more about what I've been up to , you can go HERE and read more!!

Yes, I know that was incredibly lazy of me but there's no sense reinventing the wheel you know!